It has only been 2 and a half months since I discovered that I am pregnant but I missed my glass of wine already..it is not that I am an alcoholic. Work has been so hectic the last 2 weeks and Lucas has been so active and the hormones in my body is creating wreck in me. Today, after I tucked Lucas to bed, I missed my glass of wine. It would be nice to eat my dinner in peace and sip some wine to wind down. It is going to be a while before I can start drinking again i.e. after the delivery and the breastfeeding. Meanwhile, Dominic is all happy to get the booze stock all to himself.
Instead, I have to settle for a can of Vanilla Coke - better than drinking milk, I suppose.
But honestly, I have been 'cheating' now and then. A few hours before I were to take my home pregnancy test, my dear husband gave me a very encouraging message. He was drinking his beer and he said to me, 'Here, drink some. Once you are tested positive, you can't drink. Since you do not 'know' now, better have a few sips'. We pretty sure then the test is going to be positive. On Valentine Day, we had a nice dinner complimentary from my in-laws. My dear husband poured me a quarter class of wine and said, 'Since it is Valentine, you can have a few sips.' I happily gulp the precious liquid.
Thinking back, I also had been cheating when I was breastfeeding Lucas. I remembered very well on the first day we took Lucas home from the hospital, Lucas was downed with jaundice. He was supposed to drink more milk to help purge the toxin out of his body but this boy just wanted to sleep. His jaundice was getting worse and I was not sure what to do. I was so stressed and I just drank a can of beer! Don't know what damage has been done.