Counting Down to Being Unemployed

My sweet deal of being able to work from home is ending end of this month. Looking forward to not having any deliverables and dateline, but not the part of not getting paid though. So, I'm planning to take 2-3 months break while Lucas is having his 2 months school holiday from late July to early Sept. Hopefully, something will come in September/October. So, how am I going to keep myself busy and not spending too much money?? I have written a list of people I want to catch-up and meet, my massage and visit to hair saloon, visit to dentist and doctors, plan for the holiday in Gold Coast in August, organize more play dates for the kids. I think I will not have any problem filling in my time.

At the same time, I am also thinking if I should be a permanent employee instead of a freelancer, or try my hand on some small business, or just retire for good! Haha...I wish. Financially, I am not in a position to retire.

Bad Temper

Lucas has such bad temper when he is at home. He is such an angel when he is in school or when we are not around. Today, we had the 'I don't want to eat rice' ordeal. He insisted that I change the food. I lost my patience after I tried to explain a few times. He lost this temper too and started pushing Chloe's high chair against the wall, kick the laundry basket which was on his way to the bathroom and smack me with his hand. I took out the cane. Cane him on his hands when he smacked or throw things, cane his legs when he kicked things. Even threatened him to give him all the cane mark to show his class-mates tomorrow. He then ate his dinner. But I won't let all those temper throwing go. As a punishment, he did not get his ice-cream. Then when I gave him his bath, the threw his wet face towel on me. He get a nice lecture from him and another punishment - I'm not reading to him and he has to go to sleep on his own. Oh....he is so difficult. I tried explaning, give him time out, take away his favourite things and nothing seems to work. You can be sure he is back to it again tomorrow.
I'm out of wits on what should I do.

Death

Out of the blue, while I was tucking the kids to bed, we had this conversation.

Lucas: Mom, when you are dead, do you want to wrap in cloth or you want to go to heaven?
Me: I want to go to heaven. I heard it is a very nice place.
Lucas: But heaven is far far away. I wrap you in cloth like mummy. Then you can still stay in this house with me.
Me: But I will smell. (not in a mood to explain the decompose part).
Lucas: But I will miss you if you go to heaven. (started to sob softly) Do you have to call the heaven to come and get you?
Me: I think the angel will know to come and get me.
Lucas: Do you have the number to call the angel?
Me: No. I don't.
Lucas: Good, then you cannot call the angel. I will wrap you in white cloth all over you except your eyes. Or else you can only see dark or white.
Me: OK.

It sure feels good to hear him say he will miss me when I died!

What a Difference!

Lucas has become a terror or rebel. Lately, he has been doing things unimaginable. He digs is nose until it bleeds. I told him to blow it out hard, but he still put his finger there. And this is not the first time his nose bleeds. Then he started playing with his saliva! Gosh....where did he get the idea! I threatened to apply some chili on his finger if he keeps digging his nose. Then I went further to threaten him by saying I will tell his teacher and he will get call by his principal. He was like 'Don't you dare go tell my teacher'. All these dramas happen before 8am in the morning!

Meanwhile, Chloe is the sweet thing...for now. She will say 'Good morning', 'I'm going to take my bath now. See you later.' Hope it lasts for a looonnng time.

Well, Lucas was a sweet little kid too before Chloe comes along....